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I'm choked up today.

I went to bed with the one I wanted.

I woke up beside him and felt patience as he slept.

I have no worries about material things or money problems.

But I can't catch my breath today. I can't breathe fully. I can't hide these brimming tears.

The way my mind and soul works is starting to tangle me up in myself. I want to be tangled in you, him, them. Not just me. I can't do this again.